Long Overdue Update - And It's a SH*TTY one

Hello,

It's been way too long since I've written in my blog, I know. I've had every intention, so many topics run through my head, tons of insightful ideas to share, but I've waited until this moment. Today is January 27th (I had to check the calendar)... It is a new year with so much more ups and downs then last year. Really? Already? Yes, really and already and I must say that it really sucks right now! I've written about my 'ups and downs' of life before. You don't remember? Well, here it is: http://heathergeraghty.blogspot.com/2012/05/ups-downs-of-life.html

I need to write about this because I need to vent like NO OTHER.

I keep telling myself my situation is NOT worse than being diagnosed with lung cancer, and in fact that would be the absolute worst thing that could be added to my situation.

No, I don't have lung cancer again. I lost my job last Monday. No, not my nursing job that I had been working at for nearly 8 years. I quit working that job sometime at the end of November when I was offered this amazing position that I could not pass up at The Philadelphia Sign Company. I left my job of nearly 8 years to begin full-time with benefits at The Philadelphia Sign Company working as an Administrative Assistant. Things were really looking up, wow, I got a new apartment, and I really was enjoying the new people I was working with. I never worked in an office before but my new boss, who I had met at one of my lung cancer fundraisers, said she'd train me at the job and even promised me a promotion after I had advanced in my position. But the thing is, I was actually meeting a soon-to-be nightmare of a boss. I received very little to zero training on various tasks I was expected to preform, my boss was down-grading, ripped my emotions to pieces making me cry at work on a number of occasions, made the job environment a hostile one to say the least, and after my boss mastered the art of intimating me she fired me!

Now I am unemployed, I've never been unemployed (except for the three months I was recovering from lung cancer - but I still had a job to go back to!). I am faced yet again (like cancer) with all these other 1st like applying for food stamps and applying for state assistance to pay my monthly utility bill. I am just beside myself. AND, there's an and, to make my life even more anxiety filled and stressful during this horrible time... Someone I know who has been telling me for about two weeks now that they are moving in to the same apartment complex as me, giving me a $500 referral bonus for March's rent, is now NOT moving in. Two weeks ago I still had a job, it was just 'cool' knowing that I was getting $500 off March's rent. Now I am unemployed and it is personal! This person contacted ME, told ME they were moving in, I wasn't trying to persuade anybody. That person even had a move in date set up! They were suppose to move in on February 1st...Wow, I told the person good luck at their new place.. I am sure it didn't sound sincere, but I don't care right now. I am bitter!

For now, I am applying for any state assistance that I am entitled to. I am also endlessly applying for jobs in my area, sh*t I am even willing to relocate! I NEVER thought I'd be in this situation... Doesn't that sound familiar? Just like lung cancer I am feeling like nobody understands, there is no sensitivity to my very personal dilemma. Life sucks right now.

I guess I just am looking for someone to relate to me right now. Anyone? Anyone?